Separating yourself from toxicity isn't easy,
I'm feeling feisty today. In all seriousness though I've been so cruel to my poor body. Recently I bought shapewear due to the increased hatred of my body. My chronic illnesses have lead to weight gain and as a person recovering from anorexia I have found this difficult. So my friend and I put our minds … Continue reading Embrace your body you beautiful bitches.
Lately people will tell me "You look like you're feeling better!" or "You don't look sick." Sorry but really? Do you think that I would ever desire to look how I feel internally? Makeup can go a long way and in my case so can a wig. I may be too fatigued some days to … Continue reading We can “fake” being okay.
Helping yourself by asking for help.
The phrase that hurts more than my ailments.
Having gone through Hell trying to get a diagnosis was almost unbearable. Not having an answer ate me alive. But then I got the answer I sought for so long. I initially felt relief; then I spiraled. Fibromyalgia. On top of all my other ailments. This wasn't going to vanish, and coming to terms with … Continue reading Importance of a strong support system.
For months I was in indescribable pain that waxed and waned but never entirely lessened it's grip on my body. I'm 24 but feel much older as I try to come to terms with my new lifestyle. I refuse to say boundaries because I'd rather view this as a chance to live more creatively instead … Continue reading I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia two months before my wedding.
Recently I met with my new rheumatologist. I was filled with anxiety and dread, praying I'd for once be taken seriously. Fortunately he was kind and informative. I felt relieved by his demeanor. Professional yet warm. However when I received my diagnosis I was not met with the relief I expected an answer to provide. … Continue reading Coming to terms with a new diagnosis.
It's okay to love your body no matter what your clothing size tells you.
Why I'm grateful to people in the medical field.