When E.D recovery calls for a “treat yo’self” day.

I am now 6 years into eating disorder remission (anorexia) but some habits die very hard. I know some aspects of my eating disorder will always remain, but I keep on battling. Hating my body never made it any healthier nor boosted my confidence.

Due to ongoing health issues, I’ve gained weight and find it triggering that I no longer fit into my old clothes. I kept beating myself up over it, expecting myself to eat my way back into clothing that just served, for me, as an unpleasant reminder that I’m not as tiny as I once was. Then, it occurred to me. What if I just decide to embrace what I’ve got? Crazy notion, I know but it really helped. I went shopping today and got figure flattering clothes for my new size and it drastically boosted my confidence. I also got myself some new makeup (Sephora is my drug) and dolled myself up even though I originally felt frightened to go in public in my prior outfit.

Society is constantly pushing this ideal body size, when in reality it isn’t relevant to true beauty. Cliche as it may sound, beauty extends from the inside outward. That’s not to say feeling confident on the outside isn’t important, it is, but loving the wonderful person you are makes loving your outer self much easier. Today, I embraced my figure. I flaunted what I’ve got in some new cute, summery tops and even some shorts. Wearing clothes I didn’t feel like I was cramming myself into, plus getting out of the house, was exactly what I needed to rejuvenate and recover from the hardships of the last few months. I let my stretch marks show and I felt okay with it. I know there will be days where the sight of them will haunt me and make me want to hide still, but I am working toward more days like today where I feel attractive and like I accomplished something. Your body is the only one you’ve got, and though it’s hard to deal with wanting to fit into the mold, who wants to be an exact copy anyway? Love the you that you are and if you’re trying to lose weight, trust me when I say it’s much easier done if you treat your body with care as opposed to hatred.

With love,


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s